What you get for playing with his heart.

April 15th, 2014

It’s that void again..
The huge one this time
It aches. It kills.
Just like it did last week
What did I do to deserve this?
Is manipulating a person’s feelings that much of a crime?
I’m lost
Isn’t that what I’ve been wanting all along?
I deserve better.. I know I do
Why do I feel like a part of me died?
I’m running out of those parts..
It’s like a sudden hair pull
A slap in the face
It stings you back to your consciousness
But we all know here how bad I am with voids
This never has a happy ending
Just a start of a new bad habit
My only concern right now is what should it be?
I mean. I’ve already done it all.
“You should get a ‘hobby’.”
Hah.
Every time I hear this word a little devil in me smiles the most sarcastic smile
It’s so sarcastic I smirk involuntarily
Get a hobby. Who needs a hobby.
I’ve got my bad habits all around me waiting for me to feel this exact void and get back to them
They miss me.. And I, them.
Which one should i go back to?
Hmm..
Too many options
Im bad at decision making
Thank God this is a lifestyle not an option.

— Dee 51